Christmas again.

In the past, Christmas brought hope. Christmas brought fantasy. Christmas brought passion...which drove me to carry on to next year...

And then this Christmas comes.

What I have now...hmm...

Frustration.

Desperation.

Passion? Obviously...gone already.

It seems that

I will never be the enthusiastic me (in the past) again......

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Now I realize my real problem.

I keep on "alienating" myself from "the relationship" (if I and she did have one...)

well don't misunderstand "relationship"... May it be a frdship...it's really really subtle and sooooo undetectable then.

Well...Aquarius girls are just so charming to me...at the same time it's so painful to put hope on them...

Should it be the time to really really really call it over......

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如何看待這段「歷史」......

1. 因果關係

對別人好->別人感謝->對別人好->別人感謝->......

一直維持下去，直到錯覺產生.

一切一切...也許，該是終結的時候了.

2. 緣份

一直相信緣份

可是，種種跡象顯示...

緣份

可能只是一堆或然率罷了.

3. 階級背景

這不是問題—假如這是過去的事.

當我們為著未來

選了不同的階級標籤和身份



那真可沒得救了.

4. 勇氣

最重要的是，我從來沒拼死一搏的決心.














還是那句︰沒得救了.